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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 04:46:47 GMT

drama nitee*

OMG!! YESS!! IT'Z FINALLIEE OVER! lolz....drama showz are finallie over! omgg....lolz....ma lyf has been taken over by it 4 lyk...a week or more noww!! >< LOLZ. yupz yupz~ n all three nitez of the performanceeeee wenttttt pweety gd!! hehehz..altho there are someee screweed up linez..buh..no one noticed. hehehh...buh..man...am i gladd it'z overr~ hehehz...man..it waz soooo fun!!! lolz.....i mean...everyone were sooo jox n styff...madeeeee it sooo much more interesting~ hehehz...yeaa..even tho rehearsalz can beee annoying n stressful..buh i hadd fun~ hehez..it waz such a gd experience 4 me since itz lyk...ma first year doing it. hehez. man...dis makez mee regret noh trying out last year...or the year b4 dat. noh..i'll onlie haf one more year to do it...n it'z gonna beeeeee sooo sad. >< LOLZ. buh i'm noh gonna fink about dat rite nowww. hehehehz....graduatin is just tooo depressing to fink about rite now~ LOLZ. yupz yupz. so i'll jus fink of toniteeee...hehehz..man..i had sooo much fun today. hehe..wellz...noh the cleaning up part. LOLZ. iduno how those change roomz especiallie the gurl'z change roomz got soooo friggin messy!! it waz helll having to clean everyfin up~ lolz..i mean...the gurl'z change room waz worst than the guy'z change room..now DAT is sad!! lolz. it shuld be the otha way around. buh o wellz. hehehhez....n den..went to jackastors afterwards~ hhehehz..omg..their dishez aree soooooooooooooooooo fukin hugeee man!!!!!!!!!!!1 i culdn't even finish half of it. lolz..onlie ateee lyk..on forth of ma dish. heehz..sadness~ n den...the whole crowd went to the arcadee...LOLZ. n i guess i kidna missed the warning dat sayz : 19 n older~~ LOLZ. soo funniee. went in...n the guyz were playing jittz..n den...the guy dat worked there went lyk...: alrite..u guyz hafto go bac to your tables after dis game..u hafto to be ninteen n older to be in here~ n i waz lyk..o crap. reallie!?!? LOLZ. n i waz lyk finkin..humm....we look 19. HHAHA.. i luk 19. buh apparently no one believed mee~ hmph~~ newaiz...i'm gladdd i got thru today. LOLZ. soo glad i didn't screw up ma linez. usuallie i'd lyk...freak n freezeeee infont of pplz...buh i didn't..so dat waz gd. hehehz....n man...feeling soo fukin sick. >< alwayz get sick rite before a reallie important day!! haii........poor mee! LOLZ. headache plus ma throat is killing mee!! >< neehhuuu.......overall it waz a great day n madee some reallie precious memoriezz~~ toodlez~

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 01:08:48 GMT

insecured...*

i duno why i'm feeling dis way, buh...it feelz lyk therez sooo much distance between us. it feelz weird..cuz..i feel lyk you're sorta avoiding mee? or maybe it'z jus mee being paranoid? i duno...i just feel soooo bad rite nowww...ma head'z a fukin mess. ><

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 01:17:55 GMT

..jus a lido sumfin*

               SOMETiMES ..
you gotta run away .. so you can see who will run after you

                                   SOMETiMES ..
you gotta talk quieter just to see who`s listening

SOMETiMES ..
you gotta step up in a fight just to see who`s standing by your side

                                                                   & SOMETiMES ..
you gotta make a wrong decision only to see who`s there to help you fix it

                            & SOMETiMES ..
you gotta let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you .. x3

Friday, April 08, 2005

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 23:24:16 GMT

ma fanlistings*

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 01:26:52 GMT

fuk dis...*

wtf guy. spent the whole fukin nite trying to fix da damn prob...n all i fukin get are complaintz. w/e. fuk dis. noh even gonna bother nemore. trying ta help u...n i get fukin bitched at. well..u can fukin fix da prob urself. psh~ it'z not lyk i dun haf otha styff to worry about. lyk..wtf man. i had a bad enouf dai n now dis. when i fink it culdn't get ne worst. frist get fukin bitched at from ma dad..n den..found out i lost ma fukin money...i mean..how the hell can i loose it when it waz in my fukin wallet?! yea.sure...it just disappeareed. n den...da pplz in ma fukin media group let me doo all the fukin work. u noe wut? i wanna get freee markz too!!!! but wut the hell man..nufin in this world is free. well..i'm sorry...at least not in ma world!!! so fukin pissed. n den..trying to help out here...buh u noe wut!? 4get it. noh doing shyt no moree. fuk dis.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 04:41:38 GMT

dear diary*

wahh~ hehez..i had soo muchh fun 2day~ hehez..i'm glad i went earlieee even tho it waz a late starrt~ ^^ hehehz...wanna noe y i had brought ma iapz styff w/me?! hehehz..it waz a "backup" incase we eva ran outa styff ta say ta eachotha. HAHAHHAH. ><" guess i didn't need it after all~ hehehz..datz a gd fin!! haii. u noe wut. even if we had went ta ma locker at 11....ma fwendz wuldn't even be dere. lolz..dey all went out. >< hai. da ditcherz~~ LOLZ. j/kz. o weellz. haii...i culd've wentt w/dem u noee! buh sum1 just had ta be da lido boy n dun wanna go upstairs!! hmph~ hehehz. n u washed away ma drawingz! T.T damn..shulda used a permenant marker or sumfin. MUHAHHAHAHAH. lolz. ><" buh yea.. hhahah..has ne1 eva done dat ta u? HAHHAH. i'm prob da onlie one gay enouf ta do it eh? hai~ o wellz..sux 4 u. LOLZ. nextt tym..we wuld bee da lightbolb riteee?!?!? rite. LOLZ. cuz itz fun. well...itz lyk..late noww..i'm off ta sleep~ nitez~

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 15:42:39 GMT

...swt storie*

Girl: do you really love me?
Boy: of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear u say it.
Boy: I don’t have to
Girl: y?
Boy: because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words
Boy: I can’t.
The girl started to cry softly and said: then u don’t love me!
The two continued to walk in silence. they reached the girls home.
Girl: why?
Boy: Do u really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose and whispered in her ear, "Because three words are not enough."

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 04:06:12 GMT

...lo gon..haha..*

hahahah....i'm feelin sooo muchiee bettah noww. hehez..buh styll pissed at ma mom. haii! not talkin ta her..4 now. hahaha..wonder how long dat'll last. hehehz..nehuuu!! wahhhh..hahha..i musttt beee seeing fingz ah! hehehz..cuz..ur name sayz "i miss you lo por" hahah! omg. hahaha....datz so swt~ *hugz* misss u tooooo lo gon!! hehehz...buh..buh..lolz..it'z onlie been lyk...a feww daiz n i miss ya already. haii...dis just showz how hopeless i am. hehehz..buh newai~ hehehz..wow..soo weird seeing dat on ur msn screen name. espesholie da lo por part! hehehz. cuz cuz...yea...cuz..u dun usuallie put styff lyk dat on ur screen name. hehez..buh o wellz~ hehehz. just kinda shocked when i saw it is all. hahaha. newaiiiiizzz!! wahh....dis is nottt kool..hafta wait til wednesday ta seee yuu!! *cryz* hhehehz...awwwwwwwwwwww...lolz. n dis sux cuz i can't go out n see u n styff. cuz ma mom prob being paranoid n wun let mee go! hmph!! haii..buh yeaaaaaa..sigh...onlie can go out 4 skewl project n styff..how sad. HAHHA. o wellz..newaiz..wahhh...last day of skating today!!! >< i'm glad i went tho. buh styll...LAST DAY!!! meaning..i gotta wait til NEXT year too skateeeeee!!! wahhh..lolz. meaning ur fav season is here....spring. ><" hahha...fall n winter is styll bettah tho~ hehehz...humm...i wanna goooooo skatinnn w/u ah~ hehehz..buh o wellz. hehehz..datz okieee la~ hehehz..at least i gota seeee a shortttt clip of u skatin~ hehehz...u luk soooo funnie~ hehehz..dun worrieeeeeeeeee u luked verrry kawaii~ hehez...meee not tellin u wut it meanz if u duno. ha~ newaiz...i'm outz.

Friday, March 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 00:53:54 GMT

...ma fuked up lyf*

omg. ma lyf is now over!!!!! first i can't pick up the damn fone, n den...i can't stay later after skewl, n now i can't fukin hang out w/my fwends!!! wtf guy! i'm soo fukin pissed!!! goddddddddddddd. she'z soo fukin pissin meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee off!!!! holy shyt!! just b/c of dat one fukin fone call, she finks where ever i go now, i'm going w/him!!! WTF? dat'z soooo not tru. holy shyt. godd....can't even go to the movies w/ma fwendz nemore..cuz she finkz i'm out w/some guy. wtf man!!! great. just fukin perfect!! the one time where all ma fwendz can chill 2gether, fukin bitch goes psycho on mee!! wtf man!!! goddddd. i can't take n other minute of dis!! i'm gonna break down man!!! march break is suppose to be fun!!! it'z called march break 4 a fukin reason!!!! it'z when studentz dun hafto worry abotu skewl work n chill!!! ma once called home is not turned into a fukin J.A.I.L GOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear to go...i'm gonna lyk...break something! i haven't been dis pissed in a long long long long long long time!!!!!!!! can't go newher nemore...she'z watchin me lyk a fukin hawk...so...ma lyf is pweety much screwed!!!!!!! y dun i just end it?!!!?!?!?!? dat way...i dun haf to take this shyt from her nemore!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 22:23:24 GMT

stupid card game*

wahh~ OMG!! lolz..i'm soooooooooooooooooooooo friggin pissed. well...not reallie.. more lyk..frustrated. HAHAHHAH. OMG. stupid kev! alwayz givin mee cards~ n den..everytime i'm almost done ma friggin deck....i get a new card 4 sumfin stupid reason!!! orrrr....b/c da card i haf dun match!! arghhh..pisses meee off sooo bad! grrrrrrrr. LOLZ. sigh...n denn....stupid kev added a new rule bout not being able ta swear!! I MEAN! dat is the gayest rule ever!!! GRR. wut next? can't lauf during the game? HAI!! >< buh o wellz. haii....i styll dun reallie get the rule bout seven n three. >< haii.....it'z gonna take mee a while ta figure it out. LOL. hehez..he said if he played, he would figure out da rules faster den mee. hummm......o weelz~ nehuu. yay~~ onlie one day of skewl left!! HEHEHZ. den it'z march break!!! god....FINALLIE!! lolz...i'm soo sick n tired of skewl. >< haii. feel lyk skippin every period..buh..i noe i can't. >< HHAHAH. n den..watchin da ring2 on friday! >< i dun reallie wanna watch it..buh since everyone is...den..o wellz. HAHAH. i'll just be wastin ma money watchin it. LOLZ. i'll lyk..cover ma eyes for the whole entire movie. HAHHA. o wellz. buh...i styll hafta ask ma mom if i could go. -_-" sigh...she doesn't trust meeeeee now-a-dayz. *sweatdrop* sigh...finkz whereeva i go now..i'm with hym lolz..which is nott tru!!!!!! it'z lyk..a habbit now dat i stay after skewl w/ma fwendz n play cardz. hahah..cuz sumfin funny alwayz happenz. HAHHAH. yupz yupz. nehuuu. nufin else ta add now. hahaha....toodlez.